Derrick...
this is a little something I created.
Simple & Sweet.
Just the way you like it.

It is not anything fancy
but it comes from the heart.
And I think that's all that matters.
So, well... just take a look around.

There's no special reason
for sending this to you,
except that...

I was feeling a little lonely,
and when I asked myself
what I seemed to be
missing the most, the answer
turned out to be
...you.



Some Simple Sweetness...

Sometimes,
I worry about you
You don't relax enough
You work so hard
There is so much for you to do...

Sometimes,
I worry about you
You don't realize how much
you are appreciated
or how much you give of yourself
to others
or what a wonderful partner you are
to me

Other times
I am thankful
for the way you are
as I realize it is the
only way you could be

But at all times
I want you to know that
I respect you so greatly
and I thank you for
being the best person in the world
in every way...

Every word is a piece of my heart....
Simple Sweetness that I hope will bring you Simple Pleasure....

Messages on my daily life...

Wednesday - 30/04/03

I'm home... Today is a good day, I kept my promises... slept at 12, wake at 9.30.. Aren't I a good girl? Yeap, I certainly am... Ok, another intensive study day... wrote quite a lot of notes... but gave up coz I realize those notes are useless... But still, manage to do some studying lah.... Anyway, when I woke up, he called me and we chatted... I'm always more quiet in the morning so I guess he's concern but don't worry, I'm fine k baby... nothing is wrong... Don't need to think of topics, let your heart speak..

Anyway, wanted to study at Citylink Pacific Brewery but they don't allow academic work to be done there so change venue to Marina Square's BK. Ok lah, a little warm and noisy but still alright... Tml gonna start with my Statistics... haiz... Ok lah... Anyway, poor baby got wet sending the care package to me.. hope he's feeling ok, so scared he sick.. I think he's slping.. Anyway, I guess I won't be taking the pic of my care package today but soon k... Come in to check regularly lah...

While studying, we did some chatting and they thought that he is my boyfriend. For those out there, he is not..I am single but very pampered.. Hmm, when I'm attached, I'll post it up here k... Anyway, we are discussing abt our hol chalet, and they wanted to invite you, they think that I'm waiting for you to "propose" so say "give" u this chance.. Haha.. Almost laugh my head off, hilarious joke.. They say I must personally invite you to "interact" with them... I shudder at tat... Ok, saw Marcus & his gf.. *under oath, can't reveal who*... we all think its unbelievably sweet... unbelievable but sweet...

At about 4+, we left BK and start walking ard Marina Square... Walk here walk there, I said I won't target anything but I did.. But no way am I telling you about it loh.. Haha... I buy my own stuff.. This girl is financially independent.. Ok lah, affordable.. Anyway, walked past P.O.A at Marina Square (For mountain tortoises, its People of Asia), saw a white/black dog... Very adorable, it seems tat there a sweet story behind it. Cindy told us, Ahh... nice... I'm a sucker for sweet love stories..

Ok, after Marina Square, we walk to Suntec, nice nice.. saw some lavender thingy... smells uniquely cool... Anyway, today me totally broke, was in the rush, thought I was late, forgot to top up my wallet, inside contain 4 bucks... so... haiz.. poor me... Can't buy anything lah coz my Ez-link left -ve amt, got to leave $2 to go home... today so sad case... but well... cannot buy den see lor... Saw a lot, like a bit... I think I don't really like shopping, can't seem to find anything that's worth it leh.. Nice is nice but not worth it's price... Hmm, brand names ain't much leh.. Bee, don't ask me give you my LV bag though... *Grins*

I went to Sasa and Watson today. Went to find the perfume "Dunhill-Desire" for ladies, wanted to have a sniff.... not very nice leh.. but the men one is sexy...Nice.. Heard raves about Issey MIyake men as well, haven't smelled it though.. Hmm, I like perfumes, but I've bought wat I like & though I collect perfumes, it oso depends on the scent leh.. wat else nice ah? Tried the Maybelline new lipstick, hmm.. not bad... glossy but not sticky.. can last & its affordable.. worth 3.5 stars perhaps...

Hmm, we went up Suntec to one of their foodcourt, Cindy ate but ZIla & I looked on... after that we started some chatting... Was talking about out P.E in Sec Sch... playing baseball and the funny stuff.... Was so funny I think we made a lot of noise... Then Cindy remembered what happen when she and I was in Carrefour, last year we had a class BBQ and we had to look for marshmallows... We went to Carrefour to find but can't find leh, den we ask the sales helper there....

Me: Excuse, may I know where are the marshmallows?
Her: Ahh? Orrr... Marshmallows ah?
Me: Ya ya...
Her: I think Marshmallows will be under the mushroom section lorr...
Me: Ahh? Oh! Orh... Errr... Thanks?
Cindy: ???? '_'
Her: Welcome...
We immediately walked out of Carrefour....

That was unbelievable man.. until now, when we talked about it, we still laugh... So I guess now we all know that Carrefour arrange their food based on their syllable lah... Haha... Okok, that should be all for today, nothing much.. didn't buy anything, didn't see anything nice... Well.. nothing much happen.. Ahh~ I just remembered, when I was out, my mum called me...

Her: When your exams start?
Me: 5 May, monday lor...
Her: When end?
Me: 13 May, following monday lor...
Her: Orh... you want to go London?
Me: London?
Her: Ya, go visit your uncle with your grandma and cousin..
Me: London?
Her: Ya, for 2 weeks..
Me: London? 2 weeks? *pause* Why? Sooooo long flight and nothing & no money to buy....
Her: depends on you lah...
Me: Oh! Go home den say lah....
Her: Ok, come home early ah...
Me: Orh.

So, I'm still thinking.... so long flight.. so little money... no family with me.. nothing to buy... Hmm... sound like a losing battle... See first lah.... I perfer Thailand leh.. miss it there.... Well Well.... see lah... miss u guys too... haha... I do lah..

Loving Thoughts: He loves me, he loves me not, he loves me, he loves me not, he loves me, he loves me...... not?

Tuesday - 29/04/03

Chocolates! Chocolates! More Chocolates! Ahhhh~ My whole mind is filled with it! Why? B'coz of him! I just saw a pic of my Exam Care Package from him... So many snacks and chocolates... Waah... BTH.. so many!! still very overwhelmed & touched.. Don't envy me, I'm just very pampered & cared for.. A princess of his... *grins*

When I get the Exam Care Package, I'll take some pics for you all to drool on.. haha.. Gosh... still lost for words... Anyway, he say I'll be getting it tml so the pic will be on probably tml as well... Haha... Feeling kinda excited.. But then haiz, spend so much money on me... a bit.... *dun noe*.... But till very appreciated and touched by it.

Ok, about my day.. Woke up at abt 10.30am today. Broke another promise... Anyway, when to campus at noon... Not bad, I finish writing Macroeconomics Notes for my exam today... my classmates photocopied them from me... If they don't do well, I hope it's not my fault.. *Opps*... Anyway, tml will be another revision day.. This time, with some guys in my class as well.. Probably Zhiwei & Marcus will be joining us at Pacific Brewery Citylink... We'll be doing Management.. Wonder if they will really study... *ponders*

Ok, today, I shall end my day at 0000 hours and continue to keep my promise... I'm a good girl... Right? *Nods* Anyway, while I was studying in campus today, we had a little sms chat and he said I sounded mean today... *I wonder why....* Dun noe leh... I think I'm pretty normal... probably the warm weather... Arrrghss...

Anyway, good news! Zila found the body part she was looking for.. Haha... I'm still very amused that it was missing.. Ok, its about 6.26pm now, the TV is tune to Channel U, my mum is cooking something that smells great, my dad is home reading the newspaper, I'm online typing this entry and the 2 missing people are some where ard.. Ok, everyone accounted for... I'll end my entry here for now... still thinking about the Exam Care Package... Are you envying me, Bee? Remember the LV bag too? Wahaha... *Maybe I'm really mean today..* Thanks baby for your ultimate sweetness... I still don't think I'm really that mean though....

Ok, Part 2 of my entry since I'm so free. I don't study at night during study week, only the night before.. haha.. Ok, baby is sleeping. He has a bad tummy ache coz he's trying to quit his habit. Haiz... hope he's ok... hope he has a gd rest.. Hmm.. I promise to call at 10.30pm sharp, better look at the time.. scared he scold me, he really bites hard.. not physically..

Well, been on the phone with him for quite long just now. Kinda concern coz he's sick. Anyway, tml revision is confirmed.. So irritating, they kept sending me the same sms to confirm. *was kinda frustrated*... but ok liao.... Anyway, don't wanna tire you peeps with my thoughts, bye bye... got to call him soon... Hmm... thinking chocolates....

Loving Thoughts: Why is life is like a box of chocolate?

Monday - 28/04/03

Okay, I kept my promise to him!!! I slept before 0000 hours and woke at 0830 hours! Wow... been a long time since that happen! Wahaha.... Anyway... he's still sleeping I think... Usually by now, he should be awake and had sms millions of sms but not even 1 to greet me today... Hmm... feel a bit different, like something is missing.... Him...

Okay, not much to say this early in the morning, brain not functioning well.. Well be moving my site soon... Geocities Sucks Big Time.. *pardon me* I will put up my URL as my Msn nick so look out peeps...

Anyway, will be going down to Town soon. Got to meet my gal pals from school to study... In Town!?! Okie... so much dilly dally, time to go...confirm late... die die. *think of lame excuses* Cindy is gonna start screaming.. Anyway Zila sure to be late as well lah.. Oh well... bad habit... Where is Derrick? Hmm.... getting concern...

Back back... Derrick slept till 1+ today. I'm quite happy with that... at least not another sleepless night. Today study meeting was disastrous! Can't make it lah. I conclude! Town is not a good study place. We wanted to study at Coffee Club Express (Wistma) but they don't allow people to study there... *Bummer* The hot chocolate is fantastic, so is the prize chocolate cake & cheesy mushroom pie. Trust me. Cindy works there.

Anyway, we then proceeded to the cafe at Orchard Library but so packed.. then... we gave up. Haha.. *evil laugh* Ok lah... we then went to the Cold Storage *I love Cold Storage* to get my daily supply of fruit juice *Love it too..* Den we continue our walk from Wistma to Taka to Paragon to Tangs to Far East to Paragon to HMV to Cine to Taka to Wistma to Home... We met a few stars and a few rude people. Rude salesgirl from Shu Umera and *forgot* Saw Sharon Aw & Lynn Poh *not together*. Err... wat to say? No comments lah. They look human?

Haha... A study meeting ended up being window shopping. We really wanna study... Really. You don't believe me! So, we made another "date". Tml in campus canteen at 12. Confirm study! Our plan is to finish Macroeconomics...

Okay, so all the way through my walk, Derrick and I did a bit of sms. The best part of today was at Cine, Zila err.... lets just say need a little help with searching for certain part of her body.. Wahaha... *Sorry Zila* Cindy and I had to crack our heads together and think of a decent way to explain and...............haha... Ok... enough... too much beans spilled is no good. Why am I telling you this anyway? I think I'll delete it. Tml.

This is a long entry eh? Had a lot of things to say lah.. Bear with me. Who ask you to read anyway? Its for him! Okay, So I reached home at abt 7.30pm. Everyone start forcing me to eat. A bit of explanation here.... I'm not anorexic. I just lost a bit of weight. 8 kg within 2 months to be exact. *56 to 48* Very pleased... But well, parents a little concern and are now forcing food down my throat everytime I open my mouth. I don't blame them. At least I try not to. Well I don't. Really. *I'm toking to myself here?*

Okay, Its like 0053 now. I don't mean to break my promise. Its school stuff. You understand don't you? Haiz.. I'm sorry. I really meant to keep it. Are you angry? Please don't... Anyway, I talked to my ex just now, a little depressing.. seems like he got a *connection* with his previous ex he said. Anyway, why do I care? Its the past. I'm contented with my single pampered life. Don't be jealous babe... he's the past, he's over... and you're.... not.... definitely not...

Anyway, I shall end here for today... Will talk about my 2nd study meeting tml.. hope it's great... I'm so sorry about being seem to mean and sarcastic today.. It's what being out with my gal pals make me feel... Ok, going to talk to him now... he's all loving sweetness but be careful.. he bites... hard...

Loving Thoughts: Talk to the hand, coz the face don't want to.... *Sarcastic? Just feel like it..*

Sunday - 27/04/03

Hmm, its already 1327 hours and I had just woken up. What a pig! Well.. its all because of my late night yesterday, trying to upload all my pics in the "About Me" section, so you peeps can get a glimpse of my life...

He had been more patient with me then ever. I was chatting with him when I suddenly decided to take pictures of my room. From about 2200 to 0230, I totally ignored him. And he just keep on waiting patiently....

Okay, after loading and stuff, he called me up, as usual. After chatting for a while, he suddenly say he it's not good for me to stay up late.. Then he ask me to make a few promises. Those are simple promises that are not easy to keep... but I promise to try to keep ALL of it...

1. Sleep by 12 every night.
2. Wake up at 9.30 am everyday.
3. Eat my Vitamins.
4. Eat more fish.
5. Drink more fruit juice, milk & water..
6. Take stuff like raisins and nuts...
7. (I can't remember anymore.. when I do, I'll record it in..)

So you see, he cares for me A LOT. And, because my exams are around the corner, I'm gonna get a big care package from him... Filled with goodies. Will take a pic of it to show you peeps. Don't be jealous, especially you, Bee...

Loving Thoughts: They say men don't understand women. I think women don't understand women

Saturday - 26/04/03

I'm sooooo touched by your sweetness! I can't believe that you spent the ENTIRE night just creating a website to make me happy!!

Well, I am more than happy. Its so overwhelming.... I don't know what to say.. I don't know how to feel..

It's the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me. Hmm.... well well... I'm still lost for words... It's beautiful & you're wonderful.

Thank you so much for just being you...Thank you so much for just seeing me... So touched & overwhelmed by it all....

Loving Thoughts: If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you've made me smile, the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand.

Friday - 25/04/03

Dear Derrick, Thank you for everything you've done. How you pamper me, the way you spoil me... 101 things you've done just to make me happy... Its all so wonderful that its unbelievable... I'm now officially a spoilt, pampered princess....

I know I skip my meals at times, sleep so late at night... forget to buy the stuff I need... get anxiety attacks... make you worry...

But despite all of that, you still take good care of me... Remind me, nag at me, buy for me, pamper me... And I thank you for all that..... I promise you I'll take good care of myself ok?

You must try to quit your bad habit (you know what)... I know to do so, you will suffer a great deal.. But, you can be sure I'll be right by your side, supporting you. All the way... Everyday...

Loving Thoughts: Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.



Everlasting Promise...

I cannot promise you that
I will not change
I cannot promise you that
I will not have many different moods
I cannot promise you that
I will not hurt your feelings sometimes
I cannot promise you that
I will not be erratic
I cannot promise you that
I will always be strong
I cannot promise you that
my faults will not show
But -
I do promise you that
I will always be supportive of you
I do promise you that
I will share all my thoughts
and feelings with you
I do promise you that
I will give you freedom to be yourself
I do promise you that
I will understand everything that you do
I do promise you that
I will be completely honest with you
I do promise you that
I will laugh and cry with you
I do promise you that
I will help you achieve all your goals...

Her Highness, Your Princess Brenda





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